6.15am. 75° Fahrenheit and climbing...

Oh yes.  Our three whole days of summer are upon us.  It was already heating up when I woke at 5.30am and by 6.15 it was 75° Fahrenheit / 23° Celsius outside my flat and climbing rapidly.  Not in my bed though.  Crisp cotton sheets and the fan on all night.  My skin was wonderfully cool to the touch.  Wouldn't you like to stroke, to find out?  Maybe watch the goosebumps raise on my flesh as you draw your warm lips over me?  Come snuggle up, we can relax here a while in the cool breeze.  Press against me, your heat will be a delicious contrast.

Soon enough no doubt it'll get uncomfortably warm here too.  Never mind.  There is always ice in the freezer...

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Instruments

My first Sinful Sunday post.  A gentle one to start as not feeling all that awesome today. 

Wont you lay down on the couch?

Fantasy Friday.

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There's another person inside my mind, who grows stronger everyday.  One who rejects the total submissiveness of my former self in favour of a more controlling Me.   Little miss subbie is still there, and always will be, but her alter ego is fighting for her share of the fun.  Sooner or later, she will win.  It's inevitable now.

I will not hide.

I have been away.

This is because I lost my nerve and confidence when I gained yet more weight and went firmly from the curvy to the full on 'BBW'.  This was going to be an apology - not only for my absence, but my weight.  Why would I want to do that?  To say I am something that ought to be apologised for?  I'm not going to apologise.  I'm going to do this instead.  These are some recent-ish pictures which I initially hated.  I'm not exactly in love with them now.  But they are me.  There will be more as well, as soon as I get the guts to take them.  I hope this is the first step to that. You may not like it.  I don't particularly like my body but this is me.  I do like *myself* and I don't intend to change that dependant on my dress size. I'm fat.  And that is OK.  I may not always be, I hope I am not for health reasons but I am now.  That is perfectly, totally OK.

I am fat and that is OK.

The last two were taken in the bath.  Not the best shots but the only I possess  with my tummy in.  

So erm, yeah.  See you soon.  Maybe, hopefully.  I will at least try. J xx